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  • Day 4

    Day 4

    August 23, 2025

    This blog is about being brutally honest with how I’m feeling. I don’t want this to be a filtered version of how I am supposedly learning to love my life. I want it to be the rollercoaster of how I fall in love with the life that I want to give myself.

    So with that out of the way, let’s get started with talking about Day 4 of 90. I woke up anxious. I spent most of the day anxious. I went shopping with people and it was fun, but I was still anxious. Nothing I did seemed to help me feel any better. I also hadn’t even woken up early like I have been doing. I got up around 8:30 instead of my normal 6:30. I think that made the morning harder to be honest.

    I had originally planned to go workout in the morning, but I really wasn’t feeling up to it. I listened to my body and decided to go through the day the way that I wanted to. I figured I would go to the gym in the afternoon or evening. When I got done shopping, I was exhausted.

    The first week of school really took something out of me. I can’t even explain it. I just feel like I haven’t gotten any adequate rest even though I am sleeping well and for enough hours. Sometimes that just makes things even harder because what do you mean that I am resting, but not feeling rested?

    Any despite all of that, it was a productive day. I checked everything off my list. I even made my weekly plan. It seemed impossible given that this week went a little rough. But I still did it. It’s not to say that I will always be able to push through those blocks, but I was able to today.

    In the evening I had planned to go on a walk as my exercise, but again, I wasn’t feeling it. But, someone texted me telling me the sunset was gorgeous. What better time to go for a walk than at sunset? I got my ass out of my bed and put my headphones on. I knew I wasn’t going to go for a long walk. Maybe 15 or 20 minutes. That made it easier to do since there weren’t any real expectations.

    The sky was gorgeous. It was breathtaking. The colors lit up the whole world, not just the sky. The pink was so vibrant. I walked about half a mile. By the time I was back in my dorm, the sun had completely set and there wasn’t even a bit of it peeking out. It was getting dark outside.

    I watched some TV (criminal minds) and let myself relax in the living room. I realized it was getting a bit late, so I got ready for bed. I went back to the check list and realized that there were still some items to check off. I needed to make my daily plan, weekly plan, journal, and read. I was tired, but I knew that I had it in me to do this.

    I pushed through the tired because I knew that the feeling of accomplishment would be better than the 20 minutes of earlier sleep.

    On another note, I didn’t do any school work today either. However, this had been planned. I had planned to take today off from work. Even though I didn’t get anything done yesterday, I didn’t want to punish myself for it today. So, what I was supposed to get done yesterday will get done tomorrow. I don’t have any major plans for tomorrow aside from doing my laundry. Everything else is just go with the flow and do some homework.

    If you have stuck along this far, thank you 🙂 I appreciate you reading this. I’m writing this so also I hold myself more accountable. Even if no one likes it, still writing this will help me work toward my goals.

    Live Love Life, Yvie

  • Day 3

    Day 3

    August 22, 2025

    Not the best day when it comes to how many tasks I checked off. Or even when it comes to working on school work. Or even how I feel. Very much a meh day. It was a day that I just had to get through.

    By the time I was done with dinner, I was so exhausted and I had a headache. I had a plan to do more things in the evening, but it just didn’t happen.

    But, that’s okay. I got done what I could and tomorrow is a new day. Today I didn’t get 6,000 steps, I didn’t journal or read 10 pages. Those are supposed to be some of the easier things that are on my list, but it just wasn’t possible today.

    Part of learning to love my life is learning to love all of it. I am trying to appreciate even the parts that aren’t picturesque. So many people on social media romanticize life. Which that is a great way to fall in love with your life. But, then the hard parts seem so much more difficult. We have to be honest with ourselves all the way through. It is more than okay to have these hard days. To have days where it is difficult to even get the bare minimum done.

    Today was one of those days, but I am learning that today doesn’t have to define tomorrow. Today can just be today. Nothing more, nothing less. I can appreciate that it was difficult and take a little extra care of myself tonight and tomorrow.

    Like I said before, I didn’t even work on my school work at all. Instead of beating myself up about it though, I am going to just plan to make up for the work later on.

    This post is relatively shorter than previous posts, and again, I am okay with that. It is okay to not be at 100% all the time.

    Live Love Life, Yvie

  • Day 2

    Day 2

    August 21, 2025

    Day 2 out of 90. Today was great. There wasn’t a single habit that I didn’t check off today. I went to the gym this morning for about 20 minutes. It was much easier to get my water intake in when I was starting the morning early and drinking water early. I’ll think about adding something like drink water right out of bed into my routine. I have to be entirely honest and say that it felt so good to check everything off my list. I feel very accomplished.

    While I do want to feel accomplished when I am able to check everything off, I want to contain the feeling somewhat so that I don’t feel like a failure when I’m not able to do so. It’s so hard to find a happy medium with that. How do I celebrate the wins, but not let the not wins feel like losses? I think that’s something that we all struggle with. But the important part is progress. And progress isn’t linear. There is so much more to it than just going up.

    Tomorrow is Friday, meaning that I will have gotten through a week of the semester already. I already know that I have some plans for Saturday. I’m really excited for them, so I’m just hoping that tomorrow runs smoothly. Some days are the days that you just have to get through. And that’s okay. Tomorrow is one of those days unfortunately.

    But once I get through tomorrow, it’s the weekend! Over the summer, I worked a job with non traditional hours and days. I still worked full time weeks, but my days off were spread randomly through the week. Some weeks I had a Monday and Tuesday off. Other weeks a Monday and Thursday. Pretty much every combination. It was rare, however, that I got weekends off. So, it being the weekend didn’t mean much to me. The weekends I did get off, I went on vacation. That means that this weekend is the first real weekend I’ve had in a long time. Since back in May.

    I worked for a few hours this morning. It’s an on campus job and I’m able to do homework for most of the time, unless I get a call. So, I took tonight off of homework. Sometimes you need to know when to take the break. I got everything done for tonight and tomorrow. The next homework that I have due is Monday. I will try to work over the weekend, though. Because like I said before, I would rather be ahead than just trying to keep up.

    I owe myself a self care night. Tonight is for resting, but maybe one of the nights this weekend I will do some self care. I like to do a face mask, take an everything shower, do my nails, etc. One of the most important parts of having a routine is making sure there is time to care for myself put into the schedule. I’m learning to love my life again. I won’t be able to do that if I’m not loving myself first.

  • Day 1

    Day 1

    August 20, 2025

    Here we go! Day 1 of 90. Like I said before, no one is perfect and I don’t expect myself to be perfect. My goal is to set up a routine that is all around good for my wellbeing that also isn’t too intimidating.

    I’ve wanted to try something like the 75 hard, but that just seems too much. How am I supposed to dive right into doing 2 45 minute work outs a day and other difficult tasks like that when I don’t even consistently work out now? So, this challenge is a way for me to push myself out of my comfort zone without making it too difficult on myself.

    Just a heads up, these won’t be posted exactly in real time. I will post them a day or two after that day is completed. This will give me plenty of time to write and edit the posts before they are published

    Alright! Let’s get into it!

    As I said in the setting up the challenge, there are a lot of habits I am tracking, some that I am not tracking and some that I am not doing every day.

    For my everyday habits, I completed them all except 64 oz of water. I have always struggled drinking enough water during the day. I definitely drank more than I usually do, but I didn’t quite get to 64 oz. But tomorrow is a new day. I plan to go to the gym as well which always makes it easier to drink more.

    Let’s talk about habits I’m not tracking. Let’s start with my alarm. My alarm did go off at 6:30 am. I snoozed it once or twice, but I was out of bed before 7. I had an 8 am class, but I still had plenty of time to relax and go slowly into the day the way that I wanted to.

    And now the scary one. My school work. I of course got all the homework done that is due either tonight or tomorrow. I also split up a reading that is due in a few days so that I don’t have to do all 30 some pages in one night. So, I’ve already gotten a head start on that.

    There’s no way to keep avoiding it. I gotta talk about O Chem. My professor set up this way for us to track what practice problems we have done for each exam. So, you know what? I’m using it. He wrote down which 100 are the most important practice questions for the exam. I just have to find them in the book, do them, and mark it down. Not too hard, right? I’m going to do my best to keep up with it. Anyway, it’s really nerdy and we all got assigned an element from the periodic table to use so we can anonymously track what questions we’ve done. So far, I am the only person that has started to keep track. This is where I have to remember that I am doing it for myself and not for anyone else. It doesn’t matter if other people have started to work in the class or not. I am going to, because it’s what I want to do. I don’t want to fall behind. I’d rather be ahead than just trying to keep up.

    Anyway, that’s everything from today! I hope tomorrow goes just as well, or even better! See you then!

    Live Love Life, Yvie

  • Setting up the challenge

    Setting up the challenge

    First of all, I want to say that I got this idea from someone on TikTok. I don’t remember her name, but she was doing a challenge based on the 5 types of wealth: social, financial, mental, physical, and time

    Using these 5 types, I wrote down some habits that I wanted to actively work to do in each category. I also want to preface this with: No one is perfect. No one will ever be perfect. It is okay to not get every habit done every day. The important part is that you keep working toward the goals. Don’t let one (or even ten) missed habits stop you from trying to do them. It isn’t all or nothing

    Here are a list of the habits that I chose to track and which category they are in:

    Time:

    • Daily planning
      • plan the next day out each night so that I have a rough idea of when I am doing the most important things
    • Weekly planning
      • each Saturday make a plan for the following week. This means adding the gym to my schedule as well as major study sessions

    Physical Health

    • Workout
      • go to the gym 3x per week. at this time, I am only aiming for 15-20 minutes per session. This is supposed to help me get back to the gym, not be something intimidating that makes it too hard to even go
    • 6,000 steps daily
      • obviously, the normal goal is 10,000 steps, but it’s the same idea as with the gym. work up to it slowly. If I dive right in with a goal that is so far above what I do now, I will get discouraged
    • 64 oz water
      • currently I drink about 32 oz daily, and again, I’m just trying to work up to a better amount. so for now, this is the goal
    • Skincare
      • I have a checkbox for morning and nightly skincare. Recently, I have been breaking out pretty badly. I’m 19 years old and only now have started to get any real acne on my face. So, I am doing my best to keep in under control. I took before pictures and at the end of 90 days, I hope to see a difference
      • before anyone thinks that of course after 90 days, it would clear up, I would like to say that this acne has been persistent for the last 6 months if not longer

    Financial:

    • Biweekly budget
      • I’ve been budgeting my money biweekly and stuffing into “envelopes”
      • I track what I spend in each category and restuff at the beginning of each two week period
      • over the summer, I was making a lot more money than now, during the school year, so I want to be much stricter with my budgeting

    Mental:

    • Daily journaling
      • I used to be someone who journaled every day, but then things got hard. I was scared to have the hard parts permanently written down, so I stopped
      • I still journal on occasion, but I want to become more regular about it again
    • No phone in bed morning and night
      • basically I don’t want to be on my phone once I’m in bed for the night or before I get up in the morning
      • I won’t let myself scroll on my phone until I am ready for the day completely
    • Read 10 pages
      • I love reading and during the school year it can get hard, so this is just my incentive to make sure I’m still doing something that is joyful for me

    Social:

    • Eat at least 1 meal with someone
      • With classes, it can sometimes be hard to remember that spending time with other people, not just while doing school work, is important. This is my rule to keep me engaged with my friends
    • Text someone
      • This one is to help me stay in touch with the people that I don’t go to school with. Whether it’s other friends or just my siblings or parents, I just need to text one person every day

    I set up a habit tracker through google sheets. I just searched a habit tracker template and found one that I liked. I modified it slightly to fit my personal needs. Then, I set it up so it goes for 90 days. It actually can keep going after that, but that is how far out I adjusted it so that once again, I don’t scare myself by overcommitting.

    There are some other basic ideas that I am applying to my life, but aren’t necessarily able to be tracked. For example, I set my alarm to 6:30am for every day (which is an hour and a half earlier than over the summer) so that I can start the morning on my own terms. I’m not rushing to get out the door so I can go to class. But rather, I can get ready at my own pace and allow myself to wake up in a healthy way.

    Okay here’s the big one. This is what really has me scared. When you think of someone smart, you think that everything comes naturally to them. They don’t have to work in school, they don’t need to ask for help and just all around they don’t need to put in effort. I consider myself an intelligent person. And a lot of the time, I have gotten reactions of “oh you actually studied for that?” or “we all already know you know it so you don’t need to study.” Cue me living my life for others. I have often taken these words to heart. I am taking Organic Chemistry this semester and I want to be ahead on the work. I want to be reading the book, doing the practice exercises, going to office hours, using tutoring and especially studying. But, I have this fear that I will be judged for putting in the effort. But enough is enough. This is my life. If that’s what I want to do with it, then I’m going to do it.

    Let’s go on this journey together! Let’s learn to love life again.

  • What is Learn 2 Love Life?

    What is Learn 2 Love Life?

    Hi! My name is Yvie and I am in my second year of undergraduate, studying in the biology department. I loved my first year in college, but over the summer I realized I had been living my life the way it was “meant” to be lived rather than what I actually wanted. I’m on a journey to learn to love my life the way I want it to be rather than how I think it will please other people. I am creating a structured routine for myself so that I can see what I am truly capable off.

    So what is my point in writing this blog?

    When I was starting this all up, I wanted to follow a blog that would give me some motivation for the journey. I wanted something like a TikTok series going through the different days and how the journey is going. But, I couldn’t find anything. So, I thought, what if I make one myself? This is the guide and journal that I wanted to find online. If not even one person reads this or likes it, that’s alright. Because at the end of the day, the whole point is that I’m living life for me. I’m experimenting in my life to see what I really can do. This is just another creative outlet for myself! If you want to follow along my journey, feel free! I hope you feel inspired to find out what you are capable of as well.

    Live Love Life, Yvie

    90 Day Challenge